You may not realize it from this blog, but I actually do love to write. I swear.

It has recently dawned on me that my life has been lacking in a certain area for me to become the prolific writer I could be in my own mind. Quite frankly, what stops me is that I really just don't have anything to talk about. I'm happy and my life is great. And who in hell wants to sit in front of their computer and read about how great I think my life is? However, something has recently re-surfaced in my life over the past month that has attempted to penetrate my happier-than-thou bubble. An annoyance so distinct that it can only be one thing: Drama. My life had, until recently, been drama free for years. 

Over the past two months friction has surfaced between myself and a friend and my grandmother passed away. You know, until these unfortunate circumstances I didn't realize how truly lucky that I have been these past few years. And what I realize is in the aftermath is that I'm still lucky in spite of this all and each of these situations has taught me something about life that either I already knew and until recently chose to ignore or that people can still surprise me, no matter how much I think I know.

Now that the dust has begun to settle and I am processing the events of the past couple of months, I am finally articulating what I want a new chapter in my life to contain. I have a clearer view on what I will strive to stand for in my life, what I will fight for and what I will let go. In all of this I have realized the importance of letting go of things (even people) that in the grand scheme of life are really of no importance, especially when all they do is make you want to stab yourself in the face to avoid their stupidity. Life is too short to live it in a state of annoyance. My life should be lived on my own terms, with my own happiness, and I will never apologize for my life and what I have worked hard for to make it become something that I wanted it to be.

I still want to use this blog to tell the stories that made me who I am today and document who I will become. But bear with me, as I just recently remembered that I actually do have a story to tell. And if I do say so myself, it's a good one. But where do I begin and how? There is so much to tell and I want to tell it all. I guess that is what I need to figure out. Stay Tuned...